Zehni Ayyashi (ज़हनी अय्याशी)

Whenever somebody talks about confidence I feel like blaming you. I am not confident today just because of you.  In my early days, I was so confident but now I feel like a prey in any new environment. I look for shelter, I seek help from others but I was never like this. I want to blame you and yes I am blaming you. You have taken away my child from my soul. Now I behave like any other man.You have made me a common man. I was different and you know that.  I hate you and I have closed all my doors so that you cannot make an entry back into my mind. You were wonderful like a fresh air like a floating bird, like a green petal but now I do not wish to associate you with these gentle things. You are the cruelest person I know on this earth, because you have changed me, I was different and you know that. Those days were beautiful and nights were long but warm. I never felt alone because you never left me to feel so. We shared, we fought, we discussed, we planned, we destroyed and w